Part of yourself knows that you get it.
Part of yourself trusts that you just shook brooke w's hand and didn't squelch the impulse to say, "I'm a huge fan of your wife's." Good job that, girl.
Part of yourself knows that you will rock great jeans, gorgeous blouses, slightly messy updos, and you will OWN IT, sister.
Part of yourself is leaning into it.
So pause and reflect. Don't value judge, don't now versus then yourself into a bog.
Say, I am SO thrilled to become an Aunt. A little piece of my heart will be heavy that it isn't me, that is true. But the image of scooting down and reaching out my arms and whole-heartedly scooping that little kiddo up and hugs and giggles and being Auntie Jen - oh my gosh does it thrill me. To be a forever person for someone. Thrilled and giddy and grateful. Full of delight just imagining it - full of heart.
Say, it feels good to wake up in the morning and think, oh - today isn't run day. YES. Tomorrow is - and then on, embrace it and feel powerful and love it. Just love it. Let it lead you forward, it has the power to do that and you know it.
Say, it's a little freaky to find a blood filled bat bug in your bed. Okay, more than a little freaky. But settle in, plan, strive ahead and address it. Use your brain and your ability and deal with the big picture. Then find ways to make the small picture more pleasant. Yes, there will be massive vacuuming efforts and moving of a lot of stuff. But - organize and evaluate the 'stuff.' Is it just 'stuff,' and if so, why is it stuffed in your life? Part two, how flipping fresh and clean will it be in there once the deep clean/vac/herbal spritzing is all accomplished - amazing freshness ahead! Refresh and recharge and renew the space, and don't forget to put a dose of great background music on that.
Say, I get to go ride tonight. A nice horse. Yes.
Say, I am creeping up on removing sugar and most starch and much grain. And I think it will feel fantastic.
Say, Mom is sounding more energetic each phone call. & Dad has projects to solve. And that is all good stuff.
Say, I probably would not have been able to sustain or advance in ballet but it gives me goosebumps to watch it, how joyous is that.
Say, discussing books and life with a crew of unique woman pretty seriously rocks.
Say, practice will make you more able to have a polished hairstyle.
Say, it's a wonderful thing to be friends with your spouse.
Say - wow. Eight years are just around the corner.
Say,
write the story down. Speak your voice. Find your courage. Embrace your joy.
live life and go with it.
